Touched by New Friends I made..

These are friends from Heart of God Church, Singapore.

I've only been there twice and they have already make me feel that I'm part of them. =)

They actually send a DVD to my Singapore address and I was surprised to see this video! I had to go to my friend's place to watch it because a netbook doesn't have DVD drive (That is why I need a new computer!).

Throughout my whole life, I never felt so touch before, especially something friends have done for me. They are the first to make me feel so touched and belong.

I mean, I barely know them! But they are like good buddies with me already.

Of course, I do hope to make more new friends, friends like them. <3

Lin Chi Kang, Carbonara, Sham, Asvin

Didn't do much today and the weather today is so damn hot. Surprisingly I went to have a nap though my room is as hot as a sauna.

Been thinking so hard whether I should do something different with my hair. At the same time, I felt so lazy to do so. Black hair looks good on me. But I also wanna try colouring my hair again. I had a bad experience dyeing my hair for the first time few years back. Instead of colouring once, I ended up colouring 3 times in a month.

Anyway, I finally went to have my Lin Chi Kang..=D

got 2 eggs, actually 1 egg nia. My lil sister do not like to eat egg much so she gave me hers. So as you can see, got jelly, atapchi, egg, raisin and some other things I do not know what are those.

After having Lin Chi Kang with my sister, I went to meet up with Asvin and Sham for dinner. Suppose to go to Cherating Steakhouse, but it was closed. Ended up going to Crocodile Rock.

Yes, I orang Kuantan, tapi I tak pernah pergi Crocodile Rock. Never had a chance to go there cause every time I come back I crave for food I don't get in KL.

For Asvin, she never been to Cherating Steakhouse before. Everytime she wanna go, it is always closed. Lol!

my carbonara beef bacon. Didn't finish because damn jelat. See the cheese there? Not their fault, I put all of what they gave me. Padan muka me.

Sham and me.

Sham is still doing her accountancy and will be graduating in 2 years time. See lah everybody still studying I already working....The last time I met her was last year (2008)! OMG, and now it's the end of 2009! I have no idea when can we meet again....=(

Asvin and me

Asvin is now currently having her break, while waiting to go to Melbourne to continue her course, for another 2 years. Again, I feel so out, the only one who have started work...

But anyway, I am planning to go to Melbourne this coming August during my annual leave. At least I have a friend there, I am able to save some cost a bit. heheheeeeee...=P

I know Asvin since primary school. She changed school when we were Standard 5. We became close as her mother, also my teacher asked me to take care of her. Haha. Those were the days lah...=) Time flies really fast..

Asvin, Sham and me

Hope to see you girls again. Miss you both..

Because of You

This song lifts me up again whenever I feel so down and uncertain, especially on my journey with God.. But this song reminded me on how much Christ changed me into a person full of hope, love and joy when I was so depressed few years back. And now again, I need to place my hope and trust in Him during this period of stressful life.

Pray for me

BECAUSE OF YOU, I WAS BORN AGAIN

BECAUSE OF YOU, I’M RANSOMED BY YOUR GRACE

BECAUSE OF YOU, MY HEART HAS FOUND A HOME

REFUGE FOR MY SOUL

BECAUSE OF YOU, SINS ARE WASHED AWAY

BECAUSE OF YOU, HEAVEN KNOWS MY NAME

BECAUSE OF YOU, I CAN LIVE AGAIN

YOU’VE BROKEN EVER CHAIN

UNFAILING LOVE, SO UNRESERVED

YOU GAVE YOURSELF ON CALVARY

AND NOW I STAND, FOREVER FREE

MY SAVIOUR RESCUED ME

BECAUSE OF YOU, THE WEAK SAY "I AM STRONG"

BECAUSE OF YOU, THE BROKEN HAVE A SONG

BECAUSE OF YOU, THERE'S NO NEED TO FEAR

HOPE STEADFAST, EVER SURE

NOW HEAVEN, BE OPEN

OUR GOD IS, UNSHAKEN

WE WORSHIP, CHRIST RISEN HIGH ABOVE

NOW HEAVEN, BE OPEN

ALL KINGDOMS, ALL NATIONS

DECLARE THAT YOU ARE GOD

My Graduation

This my another outdated post. Seem like I have a couple of outdated post to blog about, but am just plain lazy and with my hp mini, I cannot really edit my pictures.

Graduation was like, 2 months back. I was already in Singapore.

We traveled back together for this big day, though it is only a diploma but this diploma is a very depressing and stressful and tiring and suffering and challenging....so why not just happy happy go graduate...Without this diploma, I am not who I am now, assisting a doctor in surgery.

Of course I want to further excel. But nursing is a lil different from other profession. A degree is not necessary, unless I want to naik pangkat lah. After a diploma, all I need is an advance diploma. Our advance diploma (I call it post basic) is actually a specialty course. So in 3 years time I'll be taking my post basic in Peri Operative Nursing.

Danee and me

Nursing is very wide. Sometimes you ask me certain things, I may not know it, because it is not my specialty field.. Just like doctors. A Gynae surgeon may have very minimal knowledge on Urology. Though I'm in the theater, I may not know how to assist in every surgeries. General cases, O&G, urology and ENT surgeries is a must know. A more specialty side are Orthopaedics, Neuro and Cardio surgeries. All these will need special guidance and on-the-job training.

Jacquelina and me

Well, so far so good....we have come this far. 3 years for a diploma is pretty long. But for a degree, it only takes most 2 years, I think.

Omar and me

Nursing is not my choice, but I think I made the right choice to go for this. Especially being sponsored by Parkway Health. They never rush us and still guiding and training us all the way. We're under the PDN (Practice Development Nursing) or for layman term, teacher, hands for a year where they guide us and make us the nurse people is looking for.

meee and me...=D

People asked me whether I will maintain in this profession. Well, I answered no. I probably will at least do something to achieve my dream, though it's just a certificate level. But who knows, I may continue being a nurse til the day I die?

But I will still take up a course to achieve what I always wanted to do and have planned to do after I left high school in 2005. =) Wow, it's almost 5 years!

Queen and me

My colleagues said, "If you can survive here with Parkway Health or SINGAPORE, you can survive in any part of the world!"

Quite true I can say. Comparing to hospitals I work back in Malaysia during my training days, no fight. And many nurses from other countries also say working in Singapore is very very very stressful and challenging.

I heard even being in hospitals in UK or US, the doctors listens to the nurses because, nurses knows the patients way better than the doctors. The doctors doesn't treat nurses like a slave or maid. The nurses there are not afraid of doctors.

Over here in Asia, haha...nurses are like a mouse. We have to be very the humble and though it is not our fault we have to admit it is our fault. And doctors here very clever point finger at nurses. Their fault but they blame nurses and nurses kena sue lor...

One thing also, some nurses very bodoh wan. I'm just trying to be honest here. Just because there is shortage of nurses and many people don't want to be a nurse because they think nursing is a dirty job, so they got no choice they sponsor orang orang bodoh. I actually consider myself bodoh lor from my SPM results. But still not so bad lahhh...I will still say I am thankful and blessed to get this offer.

Many people got no other choice will all choose nursing. Like me. LOL

Sure can get wan. You don't need straight A's..

All you need is a pass in English. Get a E also is pass wart...

And credits in 3 subjects.

Easy bo? When i applied they say my results very good wor...ah pui lah good...

I got from 1-9. Up til today I am still very proud cause I got all the grades. lol

and my 9 is Bible Knowledge! =P

Sisters - Phoebs and Gail

Well, I am not a science student. So during my first 2 semesters i was struggling. I failed 2 papers in Semester 1. After that I never failed any liao..

During my convocation, Josh came by. =) One flower from mee and dee, the other from him...

Being sponsored and guaranteed a job, my parents of course the first to be very happy! hahaha...

The best thing of all, I am the first to graduate among all my siblings. =)

I still want a degree. Then a Masters.

Then enough liao lah...open business duduk rumah jaga anak.

Siew Mei and me

Oh well. I kinda lost touch with my friends liao. Even those in Singapore. We only see each other once a month for feedback session. After that 1 year I think they all will forget me liao because I am staying with my grandparents. Alone from everyone of them. *emo*..

Never mind....go make new friends, great friends from church. =)

Imagine I study with these many people in one class everyday and we can all get along pretty well? Of course, you know there is of course one group who are bitches. There's one in my group. Haha. All sorts of people lah. We make friends, made enemies, get along again, misunderstanding happens, gaduh again, you don't like me i don't like you, gossips, bla bla bla....girls are always girls..

So yeah, I have finally graduated and left college. We have no caps so we throw our certs.

H-Artistry at Quattro Kuala Lumpur

This is a very outdated post.

You probably have seen this picture somewhere in my blog. HAHA

Anyway, haha...Yes, this is my first time attending H-Artistry. Josh kinda forced me to go (you see he had to force me to go cause I don't usually go to clubs you see....) and because Lenka and Boys Like Girls will be there, ahhh, just go only lah....

We arrived there pretty late. And the crowd............

gah....i hate crowds!

We had to squeeze ourselves and all we did is stood still there, because we couldn't even move.

and camwhore at where we were standing. Andrew, Josh and me

This is Paul Freeman. Until today I don't know who he is. I lazy to find out..

And this is Hsiao Hung Jen. I also tak kenal. Some Taiwan singer lah...heard he's Jay Chou's anak murid...

After awhile, we thought of going back because I couldn't stand it anymore and I feel nauseated as I felt suffocated. That is where we then met Aaron who told us we can go in the media side as we are holding media passes.

Relieved and can sit down! =P

The hosts then led the crowd into dancing while waiting for the next artist to set up...you know, those club dancing lah...which is not really my thing unless I go with my close friends...So I just sat and watch people dancing lah..

Then...

Lenka came up to sing!

All I did was try to take good pictures. Club lightings a lil susah to take. And I'm quite far from her so flash tak sampai...

And next...

BOYS LIKE GIRLS!

I tell you, the crowd went really crazy when they came out. Like they always say, keep the best the last. Woah, I also busy taking pictures lah.

If I'm in the crowd, you'll see me with broken fingers liao.

That's Josh's super tall friend, Stanley with his super mahal punya kamela..

and see lah, all big big big camera one...

Aaron, Stanley, Ren - all kawan kawan Josh...

me and Josh. =)

Mr Burned Black Jelly

Once i put down my glass, I never drink them again..I'll ask for a new one cause....I don't like the taste of liquor...mine got campur apple wan...they all look the same you see...

So I was a happy girl and smelled like cigarette when I reached home. I had to wash my clothes and worst still, my jeans and had to make sure they are dried because I have to travel home the next day. I on the ceiling fan and stand fan. hehe..

pictures by me and Josh

Cendol, Eye Liners and a pair of Converse shoes

Being back in Kuantan is great, though I'm pretty bored at home. But getting away from work and stress overcomes the boredom. Yeah, I know, I have been only working for 2 months. But being in my line, stress is every minute. Especially in the hospital I am working in.

Anyway, people asked, "You just started working so fast got holiday?"

Actually, I have 3 days of leave to clear. But because my probation period is until the end of the year, they allowed us to clear off this leave. Particularly because some auditors are here from 7/12-9/12. Since we are JCI (Joint Commission International) accredited, we have to keep passing every time they come and audit to maintain it. Having this thing is not easy. Not every hospital is accredited with JCI. Since we are the best in South East Asia, we need this JCI thingy lah. To avoid getting us involve (we may be the cause of failing the audit cause we blur blur don't know anything..), they allow us to clear our leaves. With JCI you can trust us, so come for treatment with Parkway Health if you got ka ching ka ching ka ching lah...

So yeah, I'm back!

You know, when we Kuantan people are back from other places, we tend to crave for food we cannot find at other place. Even if we can find any, having it back here in Kuantan is just different.

Even the Asam Laksa, though Penang serves the best in Malaysia, but eating them in Kuantan just feels different. I'm looking forward for the market asam laksa. Heee...oh oh and Hoi Yin Curry Mee!! But sigh, I know I have not enough time and place in my tummy for so much food...sigh.....

And Lin Chi Kang. I think Kuantan serves the best Lin Chi Kang. Tasted other places one, didn't like them. Anyone got good Lin Chi Kang for me to try mah??

But the first thing I always crave for is always cendol. I just couldn't accept cendol sold at other place, as they add lots of things inside.

Like for this cendol campur, which is my favourite, all they have is just cendol, jelly, red bean and corn.

I don't like cendol or ice kacang where they add too many different things inside, like peanuts and some weird things.

Next, let's talk about my make up. I usually do very simple make ups, by just putting on concealer, BB cream, eye liner, mascara and blusher. The most make up i buy is eye liner. My eyes are very sensitive and it tend to tear very easily. I have tried pencil, gel and liquid. The best eye liner for me is gel.

I once bought this gel eye liner, by bloop, which cost me almost RM50 for it. I love it so much but sadly it hardened up. I have to use toner to make it moist but all the pieces of the dried up gel kept going into my eyes. Then, I bought elianto's gel eye liner. That sales girl told me it's water proof...ngat yan wan lor she. Not waterproof at all lor.

Then I bought a liquid eye liner by Maybeline, in marker form. It's my first time using liquid eye liner and I love the darkness of it. But it's liquid....it's smudge proof but not water proof. Because it's not water proof, the eye liner tend to smudge off, very badly.........

So just now I made a trip to East Coast Mall with my sister. Went over to SaSa to check out any good eye liner that will suit my eyes. Saw Maybeline's waterproof gel eye liner. I wanted to make sure that the gel eye liner will not harden like the bloop eye liner. The sales girl then recommended me to SaSa's gel eye liner. She asked me to try it, as she got good feedbacks from her customers about it.

So alright, let's try it. If it's still ain't good enough for me, I guess I'll keluar some ka ching ka ching ka ching to invest on a good brand like M.A.C or Bobbi Brown or whatever you name it..

I also got myself a pencil eye liner, for some other ways to make up which i need pencil eye liner. And the sales girl gave me Silkygirl eye liner. Haven't really try out Silkygirl products yet, so okay...Let's try out...

Let me tell you this, I always wanted to get myself a pair of Converse shoes. And every time I want one, it's either I have already spent a lot on other things and so call couldn't "afford" one or am just too lazy because the sales girl or boy kept following me around.

I bought one...

but...

for this kid...

so she won't keep bugging me for one in the future.

I like that thing on her shoe. Bought it from Singapore....got my name but spells Tiffany. I wish they have custom made ones....

New Toy

It went into the toilet bowl before, attempts suicide many times, had multiple external injuries and finally declared brain dead.

My dear phone of 1 year plus died. =( And on the day it died-ed, is the day I need to use the phone the most.

Everyday since my phone's death, I complained to my friends and I think they also bosan with my complains d. So finally, one fine day I went all the way to IMM at Jurong East to get a phone. I even signed up for a postpaid line to get the phone for a cheaper price. Yes, I even paid for the $200 deposit, because I'm a foreigner. Too desperate lah.....

So there you go....

My new beloved long awaited BlackBerry Bold. =D

*mind my look. I have not been shaping my brows, going for facial and there's no make up. That is why I need make up...or else I'll look like this...see my dark circles. gah....hate it..*

Signed for a cheap line, so the phone cost $489. If not then it's only $289. Then plus the stupid deposit, already $689. And plus some sim activation bla bla...total about $700+. But then I also signed up for the BB data plan, if I take contract 2 years then I get 30% off the package price and waive $50 from the phone price. So basically I paid $684 lah. That $200 can get back after 2 years lah. But whatever lah. Like I've said, I was desperate for a phone.

anyway...on the day I bought my BB, I realize my phone has a little problem. The keypad just went haywire and all of a sudden it goes back to normal. As a noob BB user, I thought it is a normal thing, like, maybe I accidentally pressed on something or whatever...then the 2nd and 3rd day problem still goes on. I called the customer service centre, they said it is not normal..

So I went back to IMM and was quite pissed off when they told me to go to Vivo or Plaza Singapura branch as they do not have a service centre. I mean, my phone is still brand new...why can't you give me a new one? Plus I travelled for 1 hour plus to IMM and that is what I get. Why not angry leh?

I then agreed to go to Vivo, cause I had movie date with Marilyn and Daniel (my church members). But mana tau, no more movie tickets. Lol....ANYWAY, I went to the service centre and told them my problem. You know what? The lady didn't even check my phone and told me, "I'll replace you with a new set..."

WALIAO! THAT MADE MY DAY!!!

BUT......

"Sorry miss, now the BB Bold is out of stock."

=(

"But leave me your contact number so we can contact you when the stock arrives. I will reserve one for you.."

=D

So I went home with my problematic BB....and the next day, I received a call! I can go collect my BB! But because it was quite late already and I felt lazy to go out, I went to collect my phone on Saturday instead.

So ya lah...I got my new BlackBerry Bold already lor.. and yesterday, the telco called me up and actually follow up with me on my BB. wahh...i feel very happy lorr...good customer service lor!!

Malaysia telcos, better buck up!!!

p/s: I'm offcially broke. 9 days til payroll comes! =P

2 more months to 2010...

I apologize for not updating my blog. I just feel so lazy though I have lotsa things to blog about.

Don't you think time flies? I have not been updating my blog for 1 month or more. And CHRISTMAS IS COMING! Yes, I know it is only the beginning of November, but in Singapore, it feels like Christmas is tomorrow!

@Tangs. Still putting up the decos....

Now I can start taking lots of pictures because most of the decos are up. Whee! I'll take more pictures tomorrow and I will probably post it up on facebook. Blogging on a netbook not syiok le, especially if wanna put up pictures. Netbook cannot accept such big programme like Photoshop and all...

Eh, speaking about photoshop, my friend told me I can get the original photoshop programme for $99 only with student card!! *hint hint* ahem phoebe tan..........ahemmmm...

And I'm planning to get a desktop end of this month during the PC Fair here. =D But I don't know how to shop for computer...=( when i get a desktop, i need to buy table and chair too. wah, end of november sure spend way over budget. so gotta save up this month...

Room is in a mess cause I have no place to put my things. I have my own room, but 70% of the things in the room are my grandparent's. Even the clothes hang behind the door are theirs. I only got one slot to hang. Then my closet is one tidy narrow one. The big one all their clothes inside. I very kesian. What to do....wanna save money so need to stay with them. I save kao kao then I'll move out...

Ok, that's all for now. If I go on, it'll be one darn long post.

KeUgly-an

My blog seriously look ugly. I cannot tahan I wanna change it but i cannot do it now.

It's not that I dislike pink, but just that it don't match with my header and others. Totally sudah rosak dah.....=(

I will try to find time to mencantikkan my blog.

Orientation

Today is my 4th day of my orientation. Basically, my 2nd day up til today is more on a course on Customer Service called the PP10. Yeah, so we learn on the different kinds of customer we are gonna face and of course this also teaches us how to be a customer. The good and the bad. Haha! We know the tricks...nyehehehe

We named our group....

Rojak....Why rojak? That is because my group consist of all Malaysians and we always rojak-ed up our language. Hehe

my name tag written by Elaine..

during the course. That's my facilitator infront, whom we bully alot. =P

sweets are provided. So we won't fall asleep. Actually, this course is like the first course I attended that has so many fun activities. So basically the sweets are all eaten up during theory sessions. Haha...

One of the activity is to identify the different faces of these monkeys. Not easy! My group only got 11 ones right over 23 monkeys!

There are many games on team building and communication skills. And at this very moment, I am now blogging in the waiting room, waiting for my turn for the assessment test, where we need to act as a service provider and serve our customers.

One thing I love in Singapore is that they care for every citizens, especially the elderly and the ones in need. Look at the paedestrian crossing traffic light below.

Took this while walking to class. =)

And what I discovered yesterday, Singapore is pretty at night. The buildings and all. Go over to the city at night, I find it very nice. I was over in Bugis to shop with my sister and we took a bus to Holland Village for dinner with Audrey. On the bus, I realized I have never been to that part of Singapore before. Haha....

It's time to be brave to go Pink!

Pink is the colour for the month of October. Why?

I have many people asking me in the hospital, "Why are you wearing a pink ribbon?"

Do you have the same question in mind too when you see someone wearing a pink ribbon? Of course many of you will know of a Red Ribbon, which symbolizes AIDS Awareness. But what about Pink? Some people dislike Pink because it is too girly.

Well, do you know October is the Breast Cancer Awareness month? You will see many people wearing pink or have a pink ribbon on them during this month in hospitals and shopping malls. I find this month very special because it talks on Breast Cancer. That is why Pink colour is chosen, because most females like pink.

This is the month to encourage women to be breast aware - to familiarize with how your breasts look and feel at whatever your age you are. Advising on a annual medical check ups such as Mammogram, Clinical Breast Examinations and screenings are also important for early detection that can save your life. Other than that, this creates an opportunity to raise funds for charities and for further research for treatment on this deadly disease.

Breast cancer is one of the most common form of cancer affecting women in Malaysia. Many women are not aware that a small tiny lump in their breast could be cancer. Ignorance. I have seen many people suffering from breast cancer, survivors, and even have people I know who died of breast cancer. The word "Breast Cancer" can be frightening to those who have it and to their close ones. What more, the word "Chemotherapy", "Mastectomy", which they do not just need to say it, but go through it.

It is not easy to accept that you have a cancer. You will tend to do many things to ignore this "cancer" and tend to treat yourself like as if you do not have a cancer, which is dangerous and is life threatening.

I have a patient during my training days who was diagnosed with 4th stage of breast cancer. As her primary doctor sat and took her history, she was telling the doctor that she was diagnosed a year before and couldn't accept that she has breast cancer. Instead of getting medical treatment such as chemotherapy, she went to the Sing Se for Traditional Chinese treatment. The treatment was not a success, and the cancer has spread to the other breast too. It was a little too late as she is in the last stage and chances of surviving was quite slim. Neither her breasts could be saved and further test was done to make sure the cancer cells did not spread to other organs.

We all play a role in supporting those with and without breast cancer because this is a nightmare to all of us. Those who has breast cancer will go through a 5 stages of grief - Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression and later Acceptance. During these stages, they need support and encouragements from close ones.

Common responses I have experienced according to the 5 stages of grief during my training days.
Denial - "Breast cancer? Impossible! I feel so healthy!"
Anger - "Why me? What have I done to deserve such sickness?"
Bargain - "God! If You are there, take this cancer away!"
Depression - "Since I have cancer, I will be dying. Maybe I should just die now."
Acceptance -"Yes, I have cancer. There is treatment and I should go for it. What do you have for me?"

I truly salute those cancer survivors who have faught so bravely and strongly to overcome the cancer. Losing one or both breast takes up courage to move on. Just like a soldier on the battle field. Fighting for their country to protect their country, while breast cancer patients fight to protect their body! They are our true inspiration whom we should look up to, because they are the only one who knows the real pain and sufferings.

So don't you think this month is very very important to reach out to every women? And men too! Men do play an important role in this awareness too. Don't be surprise guys, men too can have breast cancer. Every minute counts. Are you in to join in the month of awareness together? You see, by just spending a few minutes on reading this blog post, I am sure a few people have gained something.

Tired all the time

Hey everyone. I am updating here in Singapore using M1's mobile broadband. Not very satisfied with it. It's quite slow. And I think my netbook is making it laggy. I subscribed the 7.2mbps one because they were having a promotion. 30% off the usual price. Why I took the 7.2mbps one is because I was afraid that the 1mbps, 2mbps and 4mbps will be slow too. Mana tau 7.2mbps is so darn slow. So imagine if i get those lower than 7.2mbps?

I think when I get a desktop I will get a fixed one. Then my mobile one, what to do with it leh? Lolz.

I am not sure whether it is my netbook that is lagging or the connection that is lagging.

Anyway....

Currently, I am very very tired. Having headache almost everynight. Now just below my grandparent's flat, there is this lelong session going on. Very noisy. And these events usually happen during chinese festive seasons. Not only lelongs....also got opera lah, singing lah, praying lah.....darn noisy wan...

Ok, now to working matter.
I have not start working yet. For 2 weeks, I'll be having my orientation and some courses for newbies like me. Orientation was fun, but very tiring because it take the whole day. But it is fun. My fascilitator is quite funny and tries his best to keep us awake.

So yeah, nothing much....Pictures maybe another time k? I don't really have the energy to blog much today.

I will update soon....

line here in LCCT sucks. bah.

Gonna board soon.